How I Feel 3-Days Before The Wedding

I never thought I’d be this close to our wedding day, three days to be exact, especially with COVID-19. I honestly thought something crazy might have happened and would have caused us to delay…again. I want to share a few things I’m feeling being so close to our wedding day.

Nervous

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous. I do not doubt that I want to marry Tyler. That’s not what I am nervous about. I am worried about things not going as planned, like the music playing too early too late, me tripping, a gush of wind knocking over my flowers or fake eyelashes, and the list goes on and on in my head.

Weight

I know this might sound silly, and maybe you’ll roll your eyes, but I am not feeling too confident in how I look. I have gained some weight since quarantine and kept putting it off because, for a long time, I thought we’d have to postpone the wedding until 2021, so I didn’t take my diet seriously.

I hate myself for that right now, and I wish I would have started 30 days ago to make better decisions, but it is what it is, and I am learning to accept it. I know to some I may not look “chubby,” but I feel pretty heavy and don’t like myself at this size. Again, I have to accept it right now because I can’t lose 10 pounds in 3 days, right?? lol. Previous brides, did you feel that way?

Butterflies & Lucky

I remember when Tyler and I first started dating. Every time I’d see him walking towards me after class to walk to our next class, I’d get butterflies. I’d get butterflies just looking into his beautiful sparkling blue eyes when he’d hug me, kiss me, look at me. To this day, I get those same butterflies and can’t imagine the ones I will get walking down the aisle.

I can picture it now, the beautiful sound of the waves crashing, the song ” Is That Alright” by Lady Gaga playing, my dad on my side walking me down. I get goosebumps thinking about it.

I feel so lucky to have found my soulmate at an early age. It can take a while for some people, but for some reason, we found each other so early in life, and I am glad we did. We got to grow together, learn, and evolve. Some people grow apart, not Tyler and me. We grew closer. I feel like two different pieces of puzzles that fit perfectly together.

I feel lucky to have a partner who gets my weird sense of humor, laughs at dumb things with me, and understands my need to celebrate holidays like “Mean Girls” day on October 3rd. I feel thrilled to have someone who doesn’t judge my taste in music, especially when my playlist goes from Slipknot to Chris Stapleton to Lady Gaga. Someone who understands that a picture must be taken before eating so I can post it on Instagram. Someone who supports my dreams and pushes me to be better at everything.

I feel pleased to know that my life partner is someone I can trust with my life as he can with his. I am truly lucky and feel blessed. I feel pure love in my heart. I knew I wanted to be with Tyler for a long time. Whether we got married or not, I was committed to being with him forever. Now it’s just official, lol.

So this is my last wedding post, next time I talk to you guys on here, I will be Mrs. Dover. Crazy.

As always, thank you for reading. I appreciate you and your time. I can’t wait to share our big day with you guys.

I have twelve years worth of photos but here is a tiny glimpse of us very young.