Why I started using CBD

My whole life I have had leg pain, I remember being a little girl crying in my room alone because of my legs hurting. I thought for years it was growing pains but once I got in my early twenties, I knew it wasn’t. I mean I’ve been 5’4 since high-school. So, what was happening? Why was this happening?

I remember putting weights on top of legs because that was the only thing that helped the pain, adding pressure and stretching was the only thing that helped. Yes, I could have taken Tylenol, Advil, any kind of pain medication but I didn’t want to mask the problem and not a fan of pills anyways with all of the side effects as well.

I called my doctor one day about a year ago or so and asked to get some x-rays done on my knees because the pain was just so severe some days. He did a bunch of exams, x-rays, and found nothing out of the ordinary. He asked me a thousand questions and all of my answers indicated I had nothing wrong with me. He didn’t know and still doesn’t know what or why I have pain.

So of course, he just suggested to take pain medication every time I had pain and that’s when I started smoking CBD with no THC because I hate that “high” feeling. I’ve known about it and did it here and there but nothing serious. It was great, I’d smoked some, relax and go to bed without pain.

So that was the sole reason at first but as time went on, I noticed something else was wrong with me. My anxiety, and depression was getting worse and I was not liking it. I think the depression came from my birth control and that’s another story I’ll have to share because it’s dark and not pretty but anyways, back to my anxiety, it was horrible.

Being a Realtor

As a Realtor, you have to talk, interact with a lot of people, it’s part of the job. Luckily a lot of my clients have been friends and family, but the thought of going out and talking to strangers and socializing at events was terrifying to me to the point where I just wouldn’t go and if I did, I’d hardly go up and talk to anyone. I needed someone to make the first move so I can get out of my own head.

So that’s when I self-diagnosed myself with Social Anxiety disorder on a minor level. I feared talking to people and them judging me that I’m not smart enough, pretty enough, just overall not enough to be there.

Blogging is easy, being a blogger is not.

So, when I decided to blog, it was amazing, I wrote, I shared, and mostly it was about Real Estate. Nothing personal because again, I was afraid to be judged. Then I really got into blogging and considered myself a “blogger” and started getting invited to social events, my nightmare and dream. I remember my first “Influencer” event in San Francisco, it was a private invite only type of thing for influencers during fashion week and I was so stoked. I got myself ready, and drove to San Francisco and as I got closer, I started freaking out. Who the hell did I think I was showing up to this influencer event with only 1.3k Instagram followers?

I literally thought about driving back home but decided to just go in. When I got inside, I had to run to the bathroom because I had been sweating like crazy of all the nerves and I don’t know about you but my armpits tingle when I’m super.

I was in the bathroom and there were a ton of dressed up influencers that looked amazing and I definitely felt so out of place.

When I finally calmed my nerves in the bathroom, I got out and started looking around and it felt like a movie, cliques everywhere. There were so many girls in groups and I was alone, walking as if I was heading over to my friends, but really, I was just heading nowhere. I thought about walking out until I saw a section of clothing that was going to be showcased at the fashion show the next day. I thought, hmm I should at least look at this before I run out of here where I don’t belong.

I took my time looking, feeling, and admiring all of the clothing, they were beautiful. I was still alone just people watching until I see another girl alone. It was a relief; I wasn’t the only one. This is how I met my friend Linda, she’s a Youtuber and amazing seamstress and one day designer! We got to talking and hit it off and then came in Sana, a fashion/mental health blogger that confidently came up to us, we ended up hanging out the whole night. It was a ton of fun.

This event made me realize that if I would have let my anxiety get the best of me and have left, I would have never met these two amazing girls and would have missed out on a great night.

Controlling my anxiety has been a learning process and although I don’t have 100% control, I am way better off.

With the help of CBD, I have gone to more events, had more fun and in return allowed me to realize that no one is really out to get you. CBD helps me get out of my own head, enables me to feel calmer and relaxed.

CBD for fun.

So, when I’m totally “normal” whatever that means, I still like to take a full dropper of our 1000mg tincture. Why? Because it helps me stay focused at work, less stressful and overall have a better day.

This is my story, everyone is different, CBD helped me, it might not help you, but it doesn’t hurt to try.

Thank you for reading, I appreciate you and your time.

-Damaris